Are you okay?

What’s wrong?

I was 14, same old boring day at school, preparing for my GCSEs and all that.

I remember waking up in a bad mood and thinking I obviously didn’t get enough sleep, or I must be near the time of the month, or maybe it is just the stress of all this school work.

But then this happened all the time.

Finally Friday, nearly the weekend! Bad mood. 

Saturday morning, Mum suggests shopping! Bad mood. 

Summer holidays have come around and I am going to France! Bad mood. 

That’s when I thought something was up, I felt like no matter what I could never be happy. I would always feel worse in the winter time, so I assumed maybe I had suffered from SAD or something. I’d even open up about this to my closest people.

“Don’t be silly, it isn’t depression”

No one gets depression, that’s way too dramatic. 

But this same old boring day at school was in June, the sun was shining and I was playing rounders in P.E with my friends.

I felt spaced.

People were talking about me. Saying bad things about me. Did I have something on my face? In my hair? Bad fake tan?

Everyone gathered up the equipment and headed inside. I was sad. But no one noticed. We all got changed and my friend looked at me as I put my shoes on.

‘Are you okay?’ ‘What’s wrong?’.

And then I broke down right in the middle of the changing rooms. The girls ran to hug me because that’s the automatic reaction. If somebody cries you comfort them because that is the rule. Even if you don’t care.


I couldn’t explain this feeling; this paranoia I had experienced when you feel like everybody is looking and judging, and you are the only one singled out. I couldn’t explain the feeling of having this dull, bleak cloud hanging over your head, making you feel as if you have something to be guilty of.

“There must be something wrong” 

“I don’t know what’s wrong. Nothing is wrong”

“Aw, maybe you’re reaching that time of the month?”


Or maybe this was the start of a condition that was going to completely alter my life forever, stop me from socialising, make me push my favourite people away, make me think about and do things to myself that I have only heard about in television dramas.

But probably not.

Because nobody gets depression.

That’s way too dramatic.


Sweat, Smile, Repeat.

Exercise to energise!

When I’m feeling down/blue/spaced/sad- whatever label we want to call it, one thing I love to do to lift me up is exercise.

I know many people hate this word, the thought of working out makes them fatigued before they have even started. But it can be a fun and effective way of lifting your spirits immediately.

Not only does exercising release endorphins (our ‘happy’ hormones) but it is a way of allowing you to feel productive and good about yourself, which all in all will lead to a happier you.


I hated exercising. I was always the one person in P.E that would try and get out of anything that involved moving. Now? I love it. Once I became in control of what activities I wanted to do, I felt like my goals were so much more achievable.

I go to the gym two to three times a week with my best friend which is great to socialise and get out of the house as well as working out and having a goal to try and reach! When I am not at the gym I love to do Pilates and yoga. Yoga relaxes my mind, it is a way of being with yourself. A time to love yourself and think about how far you have come and what you want to do to reach the next goal post.

Pilates is also a great way to tone up your muscles and become fitter and stronger. One thing I have learnt along the way is that it is not about the vanity, but seeing improvements in yourself both mentally and physically. I cannot explain the joy that you feel when you can stretch that little bit further, or do that one extra push up that you couldn’t do yesterday.


(C) blogilates

If you are looking for a plan to stick to, I could not recommend Blogilates enough. Cassey Ho, the founder of this amazing channel, started out as a small scale YouTuber, posting Pilates and yoga videos. Now she has her own clothing range, exercise classes all around the world as well as millions of subscribers. Not only are her videos amazing but she is a prime example of how far you can go when you set goals and never give up. It doesn’t matter about the scale of your dreams, as long as you have goals to aspire to, you will be so much happier.

Cassey is an immensely positive person, so if you are looking for someone to get you motivated, check her out straight away.

If you are going to do anything today, do ten minutes, even five minutes, of some exercise and you will become addicted.

You are in control of your life and remember you can control how you feel. Do not let anything or anyone tell you otherwise. As soon as you realise that you have power over your own actions, you will be on your way to living a happy life.


Detox Water Recipes

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One major factor of feeling well and feeling good on the outside starts with how you feel on the inside. Many people say they don’t have time to create different meals or supplements that are healthy and beneficial.

Just drinking water alone can boost your mood, leaving you feeling more productive and less tired. It has so many benefits for your skin, as well as flushing out the toxins within you which helps ease tension in muscles and reducing stress and headaches.

Here are some detox water recipes to try that will definitely leave you feeling revitalised and cleansed.

Mental health is holistic; not just about our minds but our bodies as a whole. The more we focus on looking after ourselves as a whole, then we feel better as a whole.

Cucumber and Mint Detox 

Cucumber is filled with vitamins A and C, as well a folic acid and magnesium. This is great for skin care as well as flushing out toxins from the body, leaving you feeling refreshed. Mint promotes digestion and soothes any stomach troubles. 

Lemon and Cucumber Detox

Lemons too are filled with vitamin C, which is good for the immune system, as well as lowering blood pressure and any risks of cardiovascular disease or diabetes.  It is good for re-hydrating the skin, leaving you feeling confident and therefore better in your own skin.

Summer Berry Detox

Strawberries are full of anti-oxidants and polyphenols. They therefore promote cleansing and hydrating properties, flushing out waste that builds up in our lymphatic systems, and helping skin be rid from free radicals which are caused by our day-to-day lives from things such as pollution, stress and travelling. Mix with blueberries to achieve a healthier heart, and an increase of fibre and lower blood cholesterol.

Citrus Blast Detox

Limes are great for detoxing as they promote weight loss and helps with smooth digestion when you are feeling clogged up. Its high levels of vitamin C are great for our immune systems, and increasing your body’s antibiotic properties. Oranges too are full of vitamin C, preventing illnesses such as the common cold, leaving you feeling energised and ready for your day. Mix with lemon and mint to achieve the ultimate citrus flavour.



The Journey Begins…

“You’ll be fine”,

“It’s just a phase”,

“Just do things that make you happy”.

Phrases we have heard too many times and we know all too well. Mental health is still stigmatised to this day and no matter how much society claims it is accepting of this, it undoubtedly remains one of our many taboos. The truth is, it is not just a phase. Sometimes you won’t be fine. And no matter how much you try, nothing can make you happy unless it involves self-loathing and crying until you feel that there are no tears left to drown yourself in.

But this is okay.

Mental health, believe it or not, can be experienced as a journey. You may feel like you will never get out of this deep, dark and dangerous hole which is your feelings, but by feeling these horrible emotions, it can help heal your body.

This is a chance for me to share my experiences with mental health and how it interfered with my life so severely and haunted me through my darkest moments.

I want people to share these experiences, to show people that this is normal, it is not something to be ashamed of and should not be something that is just brushed under the carpet.

I am in no way a counsellor or claiming to be someone that is qualified in life coaching but sometimes sharing and hearing stories of individuals that have walked the same path as you can be just as beneficial.

I am yet to find my way to the end of this path, but I have defeated so many tough obstacles along the way that I know someday I will find the end, and it will be the light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel.

‘Don’t be ashamed of your story. It will inspire others’ – Unknown

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